My mom is making pizza

And i'm scared that my self control will start to fade away. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May you burn in hell mr pizza.

Red bracelet on

Now it's official. I have my red bracelet on. If i binge now i'm going to kill myself.

Nicole Richie with a red bracelet on. She says it's a kabbalah bracelet but i dont believe her. I know what ana's are like.......

September 4th

So today was absolute hell. I woke up after a horrible nightmare and almost couldn't breathe but at least i didn't have any food dreams. I promised myself i wouldn't binge today but i fucking did. Yeah i fucking did it. For breakfast dammit. I don't even remember what i ate...? I think i had oatmeal and then i couldn't stop myself so i started eating like rice, chicken and some unhealthy yoghurt with like 10 % fat. I almost cried afterwards. Then after that i went and played minigolf with my bro and my daddy and it was fun! I got some exersice and then i did some cheerleading practise too. So i was very happy but then we went to the supermarket and were going to buy some food. The thing that strike me the most was that every time i've been there i've been freezing and feeling empty in my stomach and this time i wasn't freezing, i was full of energy and my head were full of thoughts. That feeling scared me a lot. I love feeling empty. Hungry. Perfect. Pure. But i kept my cool and we went home without any food for me but my bro bought a box full of mini ice creams. So when i got home i felt like a force took control over me and i binged on bread and cheese. And then when my mom went to the toilet i sneaked into the kitchen like a thief and took 6 ice creams which i hided in a towel. See i'm SICK. AND I ATE THEM ALL! So right now i'm sitting here, almost suicidal in my room. Tomorrow i'm doing a detox. So i'm gonna eat nothing at all, except tea. And i don't care if i fucking faint. Cause i deserve it. I'm a FAT BITCHHHHHHHHHHHH aoijdo kjdoKDOPsk ol ugh how i hate myself :(
Well i see you tomorrow! I'm gonna take pics of everything i eat. Cause this month i have a dance competition and i wanna be thin there. For once.
See u lovelys xoxo,
Bella

About me

Hello pretty people.
I'm gonna tell a little bit about myself. My name is....well let's call me Bella. I'm 15 years old and i live in Europe. I'm a competitive dancer and cheerleader.  
I have been diagnosed with anorexia, bulimia and BED. So here i'm gonna write about my ana, mia and so on...
and put up some thinspiration. I made this blog because i wanted to have a blog where i could be 100% honest about things in my life and i wanna have control over everything i eat so i'm  gonna put up pictures of ALL THOSE THINGS I PUT IN MY MOUTH! So if i would binge i would just take a pic and show it for the whole world. I wanna recover from binge eating and become skinny. My new life starts...now.

Lots of love,
Bella xx