Okay so today was awful. I ate two slices of pizza and 2 mini ice creams for breakfast. Completely out of control. So i've been in the fucking toilet the whole day. I wanna get rid of this shit....
And then i didn't eat for the whole day until like 1 hour ago when i ate like 4 slices of bread with BUTTER AND some sausages. ughhh! DISGUSTING. And i hate meat more than anything. IF MIA WAS A PERSON SHE WOULD FUCKING BE DEAD RIGHT NOW. ughhhH!!!
I saw my reflection in my mirror today and now i realize that i'm so screwed. i've gained a hell of a weight those past 4 days. FUCK. I think i'm killing myself with this binging thing. My stomach can't take this anymore..
But new week tomorrow and i will put up PICS then. Tomorrow i will only drink water with some lemon in it. okay... FAST tomorrow. and if i fuck up, i'm going to kill myself :)
Love
From a disappointed sad Bella
xx
It sounds like your main problem is meat and bread foods. What you could do, is allow like one slice of 35 cal bread toasted with 0 cals spray butter each day. Or maybe half an english muffin with tomatoe sauce and a little faux sausage crumbles.
SvaraRaderaThis might not be very helpful, but...
SvaraRaderaI go through this all the time. If you keep up with your restricting, eventually you won't be physically able to eat this much! It will literally not only make you mentally sick, but physically sick.
THANK YOU GUYS!
SvaraRaderalotsoflove :) <3